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Sometimes i get mad so bad, knowing that the one he likes is more in everything than me. I feel useless, worthless, confused, sad, angry, and somehow i don’t know why i feel like this(shit). She’s cuter, okay. She’s prettier, okay. She’s hotter, okay. And more and more and more about her. Like, she’s almost perfect with her existence, and i have nothing to do with it.

Somehow it’s like, i just want to punch him in the face and say, “Hey look at me! I like you, i love you. Why don’t you just get to know more about me and we talk or hang in your freetime? Why can’t you just give a chance to know more about me? To see how my love is so perfectly perfect to be in your heart. Why can’t you just give me a chance to prove you that i’m so serious? Why can’t you act normal and try accept people? Like me?”

And some other time, it’s like, i just want to yell at him, “Go ahead! Catch her, say that you love her, make her fall in love with you like you fall in love with her, make her yours, be her boyfriend! So that i can just move on with my miserable life and forget you forever!”

Why? Why? Why? And why? I don’t know.

Why am i so jealous? Why am i get so mad?

Is it because you like her? Or is it because you don’t like me?

Both.